Life is good. I am really beginning to enjoy life for the first time in over a decade. After the ravages of being in the hectic and abusive relationship with the Church of Scientology, it's nice to go for a walk, enjoy life, smell the roses, or take a little time sipping lemonade on the front porch watching the world go by.
No more worries about my immortality. No worries about how I'm going to buy the next Scientology book set or buy my next training course or counseling session. No frantic worries about the world going to hell in a handbasket. (Scientology feeds its members a lot of conspiracy theories and "the world is going to end TOMORROW" sort of stories) Just peace and quiet.
Since leaving Scientology, I have paid off all the credit card debts I'd accumulated to PAY FOR Scientology services. I now have some savings and am working to replenish the totally depleted retirement funds I had amassed BEFORE Scientology, and to make up for lost time in the "make money and save some for later" game of life.
While in Scientology, every dollar and dime is earmarked for spending on the Church of Scientology and its various "charities" (front groups). You are constantly in a euphoric delusion that money will somehow materialize when you need it most and that retirement and savings were not a valid use for money. There is no security when you are in Scientology.
But now I'm making up for lost time on this American pursuit of life, and doing fairly well at it.
I have lots of new friends since leaving Scientology. It's remarkable to me that even in Clearwater, there are so many people who know nothing of Scientology and frankly never heard of it. The Church of Scientology does not run this town (Clearwater Florida) and is simply self-delusioned about its own importance, size and power here. I have found non-Scientologists to be intelligent, cheerful, caring and beautifully ordinary people and I have many new friends and acquaintances.
Some people worry that I'm still upset about Scientology. Most days, I can say that I don't even think about it. I desire that the Church of Scientology (all corporations) be disbanded, but I'm not planning on making that my life's work (I do, however, dabble in Scio-critic activities). Whenever the Church of Scientology does some of their "Fair Game" actions towards me, or sics a Scio-member on me, I just give them a proverbial black eye. (See my "Hall of Shame" webpage for a sample.) Like one famous Scio-critic, Tory Christman, said: "OSA! You fuck with me once, I'll fuck you TWICE, every time!" I have adopted that battle cry as my own, and it is my insurance against being singled out for target by the Church of Scientology. [CofS: I have a lot more dirt on you, as you already know. I would pretend I don't exist if I were you!]
But all in all, I'm having fun working in my current profession. I love to work and my customers love me. The paychecks can be fat depending on my work and I like working for myself (self-employed).
So for all of you who have expressed worries about me... don't worry. I'm just fine.
And life is good!
:)
Ruth
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